I have problems with my cca! Thanks to the macha haru!?
I have bad and good times there. I seemed to be always crying jUSt because of soccer! I am sick of crying over it! I feel like changing cca but spending my 1 and half year there I dont want to! Although last year i went through alot of difficulties because of soccer, at least i know that we were there for other another in another word we were all united(not all lah but most) so I didn't feel so wad lah. Now like we are team only in the field not outside the field.haizz....i don't mind going through lots of trouble but can we all just be united?!

Why do i need to come training or match when i dont even play in the match?
I come more training than some members and you chose them to play.... Do you know how hurt i was!? Tears drops and heart broke. Come on lah..so wad if they are better than me in running!? I dun care about that! This is so unfair!The only thing i know is that this is so UNFAIR! And some more that time shifaya lie about going to Malaysia or something then you hack care her! I am not talking about shifaya only and I arent preying on her.How Fair of you! TRYING TO BE WAD?Wow...you said that if she doesn't turn up for training then you will not allow her play rite? HEARD YOU LET HER PLAY! WOW! applause for you lah! Cant even keep promises!

Soccer girls asked me why i cried on the bus and so did miss lee. Anne knew the answer before evEN i told her. When Dayana and Niva asked me that question i was like going to break into tears but i controlled.Some ppl didn't bother to ask. The person whom dislike me also ask. Thanks for acting to care or care for me! )': crying! Sighs! THE REASON!
-Do you know how it feels when i come for training and then the ppl who didnt come for training get to help!?
NO! YOU DONT! COZ YOU WERE NEVER IN MY POSITION!
-Do you know how it feels to be sitting down and watching ppl play and you cant even play ?
NO! YOU DONT! COZ YOU WERE NEVER IN MY POSITION!
-Do you know who much pain i feel when i see my junior playing and i cant even get to play?
NO! YOU DONT. COZ YOU WERE NEVER IN MY POSITION.
-Do you know how much pain i feel when the coach doesnt even care about me?
NO! YOU DONT! COZ YOU WERE NEVER IN MY POSITION.
now...cant stop my tears from flowing.
-Do you know how i feel when ppl congrats me when i didnt even play the game!?
NO! YOU DONT! COZ YOU WERE NEVER IN MY POSITION!
-Do you know how hard it is to gather up my courage ?
NO! YOU DONT ! COZ YOU WERE NEVER IN MY POSITION!

I'm fat! I'm scared to push people! i gather up all my courage and come to trainings and matches
but i always walk out of the field with a BIG discouragement! I am trying my best in training but i am fat people! I'm scared i'll fall , i am scared i cant do like you all. I am scared you'll laugh at me!!!!I am always talkative when going home time ! That's because i dont want you all to know that i am sad.....)': You guys will never understand me because you guys never even once in my position.




ps:Not trying to bitch here but seriously i'm pissed.