why am i born?
Saturday, May 8, 2010 @ 8:36 PM
Everyone is born for a purpose but why am i born for? I always wonder this. Everyone has a talent in themselves whether it is studies or playing sports. But me, I don't have. I have tried playing badminton, but I am the lousiest badminton player. I have tried playing basketball, but I am also lousy at it.i have tried volleyball but lousy at it. I have tried playing catching but i am also lousy at it. I have tried playing soccer, but that is the worst of the worst! I have always wanted to give my all in soccer but i cant. i dun know why?! I have always wanted to be as good as other players like Dayana and Shifaya and Anne and Cherrie. Bit I cant. WHY? )': I get scolding and lecture for not gibing my best. but....I always wanted to gib my all. But I cant. I'm afraid. I'm scared ppl talk behind me. Silsilah who is so good towards me always supported me but I let her down. Hafizah and Nadra and Anne and Dayana too but I have let them down. I'm sorry! especially Silsilah, I have done so many bad things to you but you still still talk to me! I'm happy to know you but I dun think you're happy to know me. ): I'm really sorry! I have always let my parents down too. )';
=by not going express
=being fat and ugly
=being the worst daughter ever
=getting complaints
=cutting hands.
=alot more.
I am trying to go express but something is telling me not to. I want to go, to proof tht I am smart and to make them proud. But something is really asking me not too. But I want to. I'm such a trouble to ppl. Shouldn't i just die? GOD, just take me away. I will be happy with you. I dun want to live on gibing ppl trouble.I am useless ,fatty bitch. what am I good at? nothing but giving ppl trouble. Cant i just die or like cant I start a new life again? I dun want to be a teenager. I want to be that sujita chamling rai who was 3 yrs old and hanging out with ppl older than me . Hanging out with neeru, sima....haizz....)';
